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Welcome to "My Secret Diary". Here you can read about my daily life in Thailand. You might find it is the same as yours in your country.

I call it a "Secret Diary" because some of the stories I wrote on these pages are personal and some things I am not allowed to do. I don't want my parents and my teachers to know so I have written this in English. I don't really mind telling you because I don't know who you are so I don't need to worry about it that much.

In my diary, you will find me sometimes moody, sometimes upset and sometimes happy. Lots of people have written to me and told me to move on with my life after the troubles I had with my girlfriend and they said they worry about me and my "bad habits". I must say thank you a lot to them but don't worry about me too much. I know these things happen. Anyway, thanks a lot for being worried and the letters you send. I try to answer them as quickly as I can but I get many letters every day so I apologise if I am late in replying. Thanks again!!! (^_^).....

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If you have read my diary already, you might be interested to read what
people have to say. I think it is a good idea if you don't read these comments first. Like someone says, my diary is like a "soap opera" and you don't want to spoil the story for yourself. You are welcome to write your own comments - good or bad, it doesn't matter. But please remember, this is real life. It is not a story with an ending. Things change. Who knows what tomorrow will bring to me. Click here to write a comment.

COMMENTS BY VISITORS

"Gor, Where are You?? I didn't find out the next chapter of your Secret Story. Are You still in Thailand? Still in your home? Or get busy with your friends. Get Up Man!!! Write more, I'm feel happy to read your diary. Make yourself being useful for yourself, parents, friends, teachers, and your Thailand. I'm worried about you. Are You still having drugs? There are many friends waiting for your diary. And they're really worried about you." - Fery

"Since first finding your web page I always read your diary. After a few nasty things happened (bad habits? quarrel with parents?) no more updates of your diary appeared (#15 was the last one) What happened? Are you OK?" - Will

"How are you? We have been worried about you as we haven't seen any updates on your site for a few weeks. You said you got mixed up with drugs during the summer holidays and we were worried that somthing bad had happened to you. Are you OK? We are a regular reader of your diary and we miss the updates." - Jenna

"I read some of your diary entries, it was hillarious about your daily routines. Some of it, I thought was dumb...waz up w/u little peeps drinking and smoking? It's bad...you're just turning the BIG 16...so let me see....THAT'S TOOOO YOUNG! You know that 150 million people die from smoking related illnesses every year!? so I suggest...be a good kid :)" - Susan

"I really love your web site. You are soooo cute. Do you have a steady girlfriend yet? I have been reading your diary and I want some updates NOW!!!! You are so honest and brave. I would never tell those things to the whole world. Are you going to publish your life story? I really love those pictures in your diary. You look like a model and they are very professional. Who takes the pictures for you? I also like that picture of you on the laptop with a Buddha statue in the background. I know this may sound strange, is it possible to buy some of those photos? You are so adorable!!!!!! Write me. See yah!" - Sophie

"Please be moderate with your smoking and drinking. I try to. You have grown since I first visited this site in October 2000." - Carla

"I love your site especially the diary! You are soooo honest about the life that you live and the experiences that you have over there, both the good and the bad! BTW yes you ARE VERY nice looking, trust me there is someone special out there for you and she will love you to bits!" - Y've

"Don't disappoint your parents by making too many wrong choices. You have a younger brother who may be looking up to you as well. You are an outstanding young man with so much potential. I didn't read your diary, just seems wrong to be reading someone's private thoughts and peak into their personal life. Must say that you are a brave young man for that matter." - Mrs Hamm

"I really liked your secret diary. I am doing a research project on Thailand, and I found this information very helpful." - Becci

"Overall, your webpage is ACE! Especially the secret diary part, I enjoyed it the most. It gives the good insight of your daily lives 'n stuff. I like the part 1 most but as I go on reading your diary, I feel really sad that you broke up with the girlfriend.... (any chance of you patching up with your girlfriend??) I find that you have changed a lot ever since breaking up with your girlfriend. I don't think smoking and drinking is cool. In fact it is bad for the body, mind and soul..... perhaps you should stop going crazy over girls and start hitting the books. Come on, you don't need a girl to make you feel good, yeah? Do not find love, let love find you, if you keep doing that, true love will not come to you...believe me, please..it happened to me. To tell you the truth, hope that you will not be offended, your secret diary part is getting a little boring, cuz all the things that you do are so routine, if you know what I mean. Like I said, this webpage is excellent but you should try to improve it by introducing new content in your secret diary part. Thanks a bunch." - Klutz

"Your diary is interesting. Just a typical teenager. Gosh you guys sure
drink and smoke a lot. I certainly can
relate with your dad hauling you home and embarassing you." - Neville

"I can't believe that you would be brave enough to put your diary on the interenet, but I must say that it is very interesting! Keep up the good work." - Amy

"I was a little confused when I read about Kratae who gave you a rose and a Kratae that is listed under your friends list. Please email me back! I am confused. I love your website, I come often." BK

"I enjoyed your website tremendously. One thing is, your secret diary is not so secret. In fact, since you call it "secret", that makes people want to read it even more! I am surprised that you are willing and open to let the whole world read about your inner thoughts and feelings. That's a great and courageous thing to do, and few can. I am curious as to what feedback you get from people." - Danny

"Your diary's just amazing; really makes me see what life on the other side of the world is like :-) to me, all teens have the same instincts and desires, so the similarities between life there and here aren't that startling." - Daniel

"I have just read your diary and it was so amazing! Not having a girlfriend is not the end of the world. I think that your web-site is fantastic and you have obviously put a lot of work into it, hope you find someone special soon." - Amy

"It is very interesting to find out about daily life from a Thai person (instead of reading books written by farang). It will certainly be interesting to see how things work out for Rean. Personally, I'm not sure how anyone could "help" "her", but it's very kind of you to try." - Ralf

"I really enjoyed your diary. It was cool to write it in english so you could share your life experiences. Your english is very good. It's cool to be a teenager and I hope you have many wonderful memories." - Ron

"This was very interesting for me. I appreciate the honesty that comes through on this web page. Its hard to believe this young man isn't older. He did a great job on his web page. But really, he should quit the bad habit of smoking." - Susan

"I have read your secret diary, and know that you smoke. I want to remind you that smoking is bad for your health, so if possible, it is better for you to quit smoking." - Angela

"I really liked your diary and I downloaded your e-diary so that my teenage son can read it later. He has to do a project on Thailand culture and I am sure he will find it useful. Your life seems much the same as his though I hope he doesn't smoke and drink when we are not looking. I know other people have asked you to stop smoking so I won't. I do actually admire your honesty and willingness to be so open on the internet. If you didn't write about the bad things in your life too then it wouldn't be so believable. I see that you are reading "Go Ask Alice". Maybe one day your diary will become famous like that, though I hope not for the same reasons! " - Sandra

MY SECRET DIARY

WARNING: My Secret Diary stretches over several years between 1998 - 2002. It is about my life from the age of 12 to 16. Some people (i.e. teachers and parents) might not like some things they read.

In 2002, when I was 17, I stopped doing this Secret Diary because I got a job as a columnist for the Bangkok Post. I now write every week about the life of teenagers in Thailand. Some of these columns are controversial and have been banned by some teachers. However, they are very popular with teenagers. You can read my Gor's World column every Tuesday in the Bangkok Post.

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 | Part 8 | Part 9 | Part 10 | Part 11 | Part 12 | Part 13 | Part 14 | Part 15 | Part 16 | Part 17 | Part 18 | Part 19 | Part 20 | Part 21 | Part 22 | Part 23 | Part 24 | Part 25


Guide of Bangkok: "Also online is his diary, which is surprisingly explicit for a site that is as popular as his is. It just goes to prove that Thai teenagers are not as conservative and sheltered as people like to think they are."

Mission to the World: "ThailandLife.com is a webpage written very candidly by a Thai teenager. Great site for more info about Thailand from a teenager's point of view...advise some caution with regards to his diary."

Lonely Planet Guidebook: "What sort of things does a Thai teenager keep in his pocket? Or in his fridge? What's in that secret diary and how secret can it be on the net? Find out the answers to all these questions and more."

DOWNLOAD THE e-DIARY

My Secret Diary - by popular demand, you can now download my diary (part 1-10) for offline viewing. (691 K)

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COMMENTS BY THAI PEOPLE

It is Real Life. It is My Life. It is Thailand Life

"I'm really impressed with your website, and as a Thai, I'm very proud of your work. I'm wondering when you're going to post your new diary entries!" - Amy

"Even though I didn't get to finish reading your diary I'm really proud that you showed eveyone the information about Thailand." - Ron

"I read some of your stories and think that you are quite "Jaap" naja; I mean u aren't only genius in computer, but "Jaap" as well (very open especially about girlfriend)." - P Yui

"I think your secret diary is cool, I thought all children in Thailand were very "nice" you know? Like no drinking, no dating etc. My mum wont stop yagging. (My mum's Thai, and she DOES NOT like the way I party with my friends... but I guess it's the same all over." - Line

"I read your diary and it reminds me of my teen years, but I have to say that things have changed a lot from the old time when I was 15 to your time. And I am glad that kids now have more freedom, although Girls are definitely a lot more forward and cruel :) Don't be discouraged though. You are a nice looking young lad, and I am sure you will find a nice girlfriend in no time. Just take your time and have fun! Enjoy your teen years. I certainly miss mine." - Kaew

"Your web page is very creative and interesting. I like your secret diary most. I admire that you are very brave to let people read your activities and your personal feelings. I can see why you posted a warning that your stories can upset or offend someone else. I don't get upset, but I sometimes feel as if I am invading into someone else's intimate thoughts. Sorry! I can't stop reading either." - Pusit

"I just saw your latest diary entry and I was completely bowled over. What a shock indeed when you found out about Rean. But, I see you weren't down for long and already have another girl lined up for a date. You are so lucky you can pick and choose. Make sure you make a slower decision this time and don't repeat your past mistakes. Good luck next week! I'll be back to read what happens next Monday." - Wong

"Wow what a life! I have been reading your site for about 2-3 weeks now. There is a lot to read and many beautiful pictures to view. But, I mainly keep coming back for your diary updates. I feel like I know you so well. I felt great for you when you went on your first date with your true-love and then felt sympathy when you broke up. What i really want to know now is what happened on your first date last week with Rean? Was she up to expectations? Did you guys have a great time? Please post the next part of your diary very very soon!! This is like a soap opera and I need to find out what happens next!" - Wong

"I've been reading your diary on valentines day. Its a good thing that you have girls chasing after you. If I was you i'll go out with all of them." - Arun

"I love your website. I felt very sad for you that your girlfriend tricked you and had another boyfriend, but you have found out that life goes on." - Sunisa

"I'm sorry she did that to you. I just finished reading your diary. I hope you feel better. There are many girls in Bangkok. I'm sure you can find a good one. Well hang in there it will get better. Promise." - Nikki

"I read your diary every day.(I'm very nosey) I'm sorry about your girlfriend. It happens." - Caity

"Your site is so great and I cannot help but be intrigued by the content in your diary. I am sorry about your ex-girlfriend, but in America the cliche is "There are plenty of fishes in the sea!" Good luck on your search for a new girlfriend." - Bow

"My parents are from Thailand! I just looked at your website and I think it is great. Since I've never been to Thailand I'm glad I can see and hear what teenagers do in Thailand. My mom always says that thai teenagers are better than american teenagers. I don't belive it. I just read something on your web page and it seems to me that you do the same things in Thailand that we do here in America. Like in class you get bored. I don't blame you I do too. I think Thailand teenagers and American teenagers are the same! The only difference is you do more work around the house. I don't have to do anything except do good in school and make my parents proud of me." - Lisa

"I am a Thai person. I left Thailand since I was 19 years old. Reading your homepage made me remember a lot about Thailand and Thai school. I think you are a fine gentleman the way you treated your girlfriend. I am sorry things didn't work out for you. What's life like for you now? I am looking forward to your next diary." - K

"You make me very proud to be Thai. You are very honest about your life in Thailand. Also very brave. Not many people would show both the good and bad sides of life. Particularly their own. I am Thai so I know how difficult it is for you to talk about having a girlfriend and smoking etc., as your teachers and parents might not like it. But, the way you write shows people that Thai teenagers are just the same as other people around the world. It is this kind of web site that breaks down cultural barriers and washes away racial tension. You are doing a very important job for Thailand, please don't stop now. Keep adding more of the things about your life. Even the little things are fascinating for visitors." - Su

"I think it is wrong for you to have a girlfriend and go out on dates. You also tell too much in your diary. It gives a bad impression of Thai teenagers. I know I haven't lived in Thailand for a long time, but I am sure teenagers are not allowed to walk around holding hands and going out on dates." Mrs. M

"I am a thai student currently studying in England, I just want to say 'forget your girlfriend'" - Aroon

FAMOUS DIARIES

 Go Ask Alice

Anne Frank

Adrian Mole

"Just wanted to suggest a book for you...Judy Blume's Then Again May Be I Won't. I think you will like it if you like Adrian Mole. Another Judy Blume's book you probably would like is Forever. A teen classic, but very unconventional and risque book, even for now. I read Are you there God, It's Me Margaret and loved it but again I was a 13 year-old girl. That's why I recommended Then Again May Be I Won't to you instead because it's about a 14 year-old boy. Forever, however, is about first love and exploration that comes with it---a story of two teenage boy and girl (I think they were 15) and their first love. I read it the first time when I was 15 and it touched me to the core." - Bangyekan

"I loved your diary!!!! I would like updates...did you and Frank ever get together???? It was like a soap opera. My husband and I are coming to Thailand. I hope everyone there is as honest and talented and funny as you!! Keep up the great work and update the diary!!! Thanks" - Gigi

"Your Diary on your life was very helpful. I found it very cool that a person in a very different country than the US could be so similar to me. Teenagers here go to the movies, hang out with friends, and do all the things you do." - Lauren

"I was disturbed what you wrote about the drug problem in your school and I wonder what is the school doing about it and people like you. I also like to see you stop smoking and you may do it, if you could see, what is in your lungs. Try also to please your parents more and ask them to die your hair or put an ear ring in. It is your body and your life, but at this stage, your parents gave you everything and you should respect this." - Hans

"Very Good Job, Please Keep going !!!!!" - Michael

"Congratulatons to a very creative, intelligtent and funny website. Especially I liked the diary." - Staffan

"I had read about about your diary, it's very touching, I wish you and your girlfriend all the best." - Kian

"Don't worry about your girlfriend. BTW, you're cute!" - Elizabeth

"I must say that your dedication and willingness to be so open about your life and country are very admirable. Your life has ups and downs like mine and you have done very much for your family and the respect you have for them. They must be very proud of you! I look forward to reading more as you add to this terrific site!" - Jodie

"Hi! i really like your website! it's really great, especially the secret diary part. sorry things didn't work out for you two. : ( but, hey, life goes on right? keep up the good work. peace." - Kim

"Congratulations to your very creative, intelligent and funny website. I think it is wonderful that a young guy like you in Bangkok, can reach out to the whole world. I want to read more diaries!" - Staffan

"Good luck with your girlfriend, but remember life is long, things change and people change, and we need to go with the flow and keep our sanity!!" - Steve

"I just read through your diary and it totally made me smile!! You are very handsome and your girlfriend ( I hope she is still your girlfriend, lol) is so cute! I love the way you described her father and how you wait for her by the bus stop. That is soooo adorable!" - Sillei

"Thanks so much for "sharing your life" on cyber space with us. On the surface we may seem different, but down deep inside all humans are the same, regardless of culture, nationalities, and all the rest of it!" - Paulina Ann

"I just finished reading your diary of your everyday life in thailand. It seems like you are a very good boy for your parents. I am impressed. I can understand very well when you said you could not sleep because of your girlfriend. I have the same problem sometimes wondering about my friend "tita" and I'm living in the united states." - Michael

"I read all your diary and family life pages. I will visit and read more but today I'm getting tired. There is so much to see! I won't keep you because I think your phone is ringing and your girlfriend wants to chat for several hours!" - Reggie

"I think that you and your g/f are really cute and last 4 a long time. It sounds like you really like her. She must really care about you if she visited you in hospital. Good luck." - Michelle